Touch of Blissful Release (yes, its an Exalted reference...)

My back is so good today. It's amazing. I woke up and it was so relaxed, and so nice, and barely moved for the next hour just because there was so little pain in it.

My back is one of my really problematic spots for my FM, and even now its getting cranky again. I got a massage last night - I was threatening to flare, and I was getting worked up over it, which wasn't helping matters any, but thankfully, I have friends who are good at massaging. I think the almost-flare came on due to my sleeping habits, which have been really wonky lately, and some emotional stress too. Not major stress, but there. Well, if you read yesterday's journal, you know I mean.

Anyway, it was nice not to have that pain, if only for a little while. I'm going to have to look more seriously into massage than I have in the past, because if it helps this much, then its totally worth it.

Wait. Something wierd here. It just clicked.

A few months ago my dad and I were doing the massage thing. He'd give me one before I went to bed, but I distinctly remember that, the first night in particular, that there was this period where everything felt nice, and it was wonderful.

Then everything hurt like hell and wouldn't let up as it all tensed up and started aching again.

Why didn't that happen last night?

Somethings are just too good to be true...

Ung. I should have known. I really should have. When I wake up feeling good, it invariably leads to disaster later in the day.

And today is no exception. Things got really unpleasant about two hours ago, during Kung Fu. Ouch man. I realized almost right off the bat that I was sensitive today, but OW!!!!! I only got through half the class. I tried to work through the pain, but I just couldn't do it.

Frelling pain.

I know I've been eating well enough, and exercising. My sleep has been a little wonky, but not too too bad, though its likely a contributing factor. I suspect last night's crap isn't helping either. Emotions suck. I don't even want to think about dating or any of that right now. It would just be easier to ignore it all, I think. Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.................. I'm having enough here.