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I just did something I'm not sure I'm comfortable with.

I'm going to be very wishy-washy about being online for the next month or so, maybe longer, and combined with querries from a group member about being a mod herself, I gave in and am going to give her the post. (I being the only mod currently)

Yes, this is the group with the bitchy sisters, for those of you who've heard that rant. They've gotten better, believe it or not, though I'm now hearing doubts from the other players about the fact that they've introduced a crossover... I'll make this work, damnit. Thank God the already-there players trust me.

Now, it's not that I don't trust this newly appointed mod. She's a good person who's willing to improve on herself (in most aspects - don't get her started on Harry Potter, she absolutely hates it, which is scary), but she's young, and there's nagging doubt that has suddenly creeped up, asking me if she's up to really moderating this group.

She owns a group we co-run, but this different. This group had had serious issues in the past, and has slightly older players. I'm just learning that moderating is more than having a star by your name and approving characters, and that's after months as a mod, and months beforehand as an intermediary. I'm something like five years her senior. That's a lot.

I might also be on a power trip that's making me doubt. I'm rather like that, every now and then. I like holding the reins sometimes, and I hate letting go more.

*sighs*

I think I'm over-reacting, and I'm tired, and I do trust her, and the senior position is still mine. My head is very scrambled right now.

Worst to worst, it doesn't work out, and I dismiss her from the position.

I need to stop thinking so hard when I'm this tired. Everything always looks so much gloomier.